So I feel like shit, again XD
my fault I guess like I am a retard in a social life like I can't function at all with other people aroung me just my familie and my boyfriend. I have no friends to go in the weekend except my love (L) But also I would like just for once to hang out just with friends, which I has none from >.< sad me happily I am a gamer, a noob gamer in the world of warcraft XD it isn't too bad I like it, it keeps me going social you know.

Anyway I made a new start this schoolyear, pianolesson doing photography I like it but hate it even more, it's a really exspensive hobby and I suck at it, I have lucky shots i guess I am thinking of getting my education done and then quit with it forever? Mabey? I am not sure yet. Just every time I have this liek amazing idea and It comes out as trash and I don't like it so what's the point of doing something you suck at and that isn't getting any better.

Oh yea this a rant not a message for attetion or affection or something I hate when people go like awwh you has no friends, cheer up they will come eventually, well They won't I waited ant tried for 19 fucking years so don't say I didn't go out to much I DID! didn't do anything good just more hurt I guess. So now I will stop babbling because my mom is kicking my but from the pc because she has a fucking meeting about a church his finances, like i fucking care but I has to go somewhere else because she had to volunteer so badly :< like go do a meeting in the church?